Catharsis 21 - August

1. i wish i wasn't such a big disappointment to u...
2. spring is [nearly] here!! ^__^
3. if only i could turn back time... if only i had said what i still hide...
4. i'm sorry i'm not a better friend to u... u treat me so well =(
5. back to the gym!! need to get [somewhat] fit again!!!
6. 'sometimes people play hard to get because they need to know the other person's feelings are real'
7. i want Sushi Train, Sizzler's, Freestyle, Pane e Vino and Food Fantasy so badly =(
8. sometimes, sometimes, sometimes... i get lonely too...
9. why do feelings have to be so freakin' complicated?!
10. somebody give me a good surprise... it's been too long!!
11. i should stop trying to live in fantasy world...
12. OMG... less than 3 weeks left...
13. where's the motivation?
14. where did it all go?
15. i hope someone better comes along... u deserve it =)
16. u're gonna end up a forgotten memory to me one day...
17. why don't the good things ever stay the same?
18. u're still my sunshine after the rain =)
19. i need an image makeover... starting next month!!!
20. i want so many new things...
21. stop procrastinating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Catharsis 21 - May

it's about that time of the month [not THAT time of the month...] for my emo rantings about life... here goes...

1. i'm a single girl living in a couples' world...
2. why do i always want what i can't have?!
3. guys ruin lives... in more ways than one >_<"
4. am i really that smart or just fluking it?
5. i really, really, really wanna go on a holiday!!!
6. can't wait to dress up... Casino Royale style ^___^
7. the most random lyrics in the world...

Well come on, the way the time cold
I wanna be keeping you, worm
I got the right temperature
Fish hat, a ewe from the storm

Hola! Girl I got the right ant ticks to turn you on
Angola! Wanna be a papa? You can beat a mum... uh oh!!

whoever made this up is freakin' hilarious XD
btw, for those of u who can't figure it out, they're the [misheard] lyrics of Sean Paul's "Temperature"
watch the funni ass video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfXke_z6t3I&feature=related

8. tell me u're only like this 'cause u're being nice...
9. after all this time, why do i still care? why do i still worry about what u're doing?
10. i wish i could write all my probs onto a piece of paper, rip it up and let it all fly away... if only it were that simple...
11. why can't my life be more like a video game? if i stuff up, i could just reset it and start all over again...
12. really need to stop thinking so much...
13. let's go on a shopping spree!! haven't been on one in so long...
14. as much as i'm an easy target for all ur jokes, thanks for making me laugh and for the great company =P
15. need to get back into my cardio classes... stop being lazy >_<"
16. i always used to think u were emotionally retarded... i think it's contagious *sighs*
17. i'm in desperate need of pampering... waxing, manicure, massage, more foils, the works!!!
18. gotta stop trying to live in the past... it's in the past for a reason...
19. i wanna rearrange my room... and my life...
20. i wanna try and figure u out b4 it's too late...
21. i really do want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kinda life...

Adventures of the Black Widow

the Easter holz came and went faster than i thought... time surely does fly when u're having fun hehe to recap on what i wanted to do...

1. study for my PSYC2010 exam since the exam is on the first day back from holz
2. start [and hopefully finish] research for my LAWS3113 assignment
3. pay off my layby
4. go to the Andy Warhol exhibition and see what all the hype is about
5. get my hair cut and coloured
6. catch up with my girlfriends hopefully [if they're all free!!]
7. clean up my room

i only did 1, 4 and 6 >_<" maybe i was aiming too high when i decided i wanted to do all those things hehe my last few days of mid-sem holz were awesome!! in short...

1. i went to Cam's 21st and drank a little, played poker a little, ate a little and met some new pplz... i think his party was the one with the most alcoholic drinks and the least food hehe it was all good though... had a lotta fun and it gave me an excuse to drive for the first time this yr... thanks so much Ketty for letting me drive ur car and for trusting me with ur car and ur life hehe
2. i went to gym for the first time in 2 weeks... Cardio Funk rocks even if i look unco doing the moves!!!
3. i went to Andy Warhol with CC and i enjoyed every moment... made the most of all the interactive activities there... we both had our 15 secs of fame, played with cloud balloons and took lotsa photos hehe my personal fave...


4. i caught up with my girls throughout the week... whether we drank every alcoholic drink that wasn't beer, ate yummy chicken salad sandwiches, celebrated b'days, ate dinner on a budget, sang karaoke or stayed up all nite D&Ming, gossiping about guys or playing word games, i loved every single min with u all!! u girls r my angels =)
5. went to Lan's 21st which was the last of my 4 consecutive 21sts on a Sat nite... Lan, if u're reading this, i'm so, so sorry that i was so late to ur party... the food was really nice and the b'day cake was absolutely divine!! thanks for inviting me and i hope u liked all ur pressies!! and u looked absolutely beautiful... ur dress was so nice =)

in case u're wondering where the "black widow" thing came from, it's a nickname i got while i was playing APL poker last yr... at first, i thought of the nickname as a bit of a joke seeing as i've beaten quite a few guys at poker [no, i'm not implying that i'm a shark =P] and i wear black a lot but after thinking about it a bit more, i'm starting to believe there's a deeper meaning behind this name...

i had other things to blog about but maybe i'll save it for next time...

Party season has begun!!

had the first of 4 consecutive 21st b'day parties last nite and it was quite fun!! even though i see most of my closest friends either in small groups or 1 on 1 these days, when we hang out as a big group, i always feel so warm and comfy and i feel like i can really let go and be myself... not saying that i'm not myself when i hang around pplz normally, but these days, i've become more emotionally distant... i'm doing more listening than talking these days as well and i'm really hoping this is just a phase 'cause i don't wanna become anti-social!!

in other news [i'm dotpointing now 'cause i'm getting lazy...]:

• this week for me is jam-packed!! JUST LOOK AT THIS!!
  Mon ~ psych experiment 12 - 1pm, uni 4 - 6pm
  Tues ~ work 9:30am - 5pm
  Wed ~ uni 8am - 6pm, gym 6:30 - 7:30pm
  Thurs ~ uni 12 - 5pm, gym 5:30 - 6:30pm, possible farewell/b'day party to go to afterwards
  Fri ~ work 9:30am - 5pm
  Sat ~ work 9:30am - 4:30pm, Alyce's 21st
  
• i'm on my way to finding a new job!! once i properly finish my resume [i'm setting tonite as a deadline!!] and get cracking on my cover letters, i've got 2 or 3 jobs i'm hoping to get... wish me luck!!
• i'm also on my way to getting fitter... i'm planning to do 3 cardio classes a week as well as get into other forms of exercise like skipping once i find time to buy a decent skipping rope
• watched SYTYCD tonite and OMG, all the routines were awesome!! i think all the dancers r upping their game now and it'll be so sad to see 2 of them leave tomorrow nite =(
• also watching this new TVB series 'called 最美麗的第七天 and i'm already getting into it... i love it when 鄭嘉穎 and 周麗淇 do a series together 'cause i reckon they have such great chemistry... plus they're both ridiculously good looking... especially 鄭嘉穎 *sighs* he's my on-screen Mr Sparkle hehe

i had more i wanted to blog about but my brain's pretty much switched off for the nite so i might sign off now and blog again when my memory's not so bad... have a good week everyone!!