Catharsis 21 - June

1. has the whole world become superficial?
2. is it so hard to find a guy who has depth?!
3. something or someone is holding me back...
4. please let me pass... please let me pass...
5. start saving and stop spending!!!
6. between us i feel this undeniable thing... but what is it???
7. it's been short and sweet so far but i'll still miss u...
8. why does my past keep coming back to haunt me >_<"
9. i think i'm letting u slip away... 'cause it's just not the same...
10. please stop the talking... u're only driving everyone further away...
11. am i the "friend" u're talking about?
12. i want a cute puppy or kitten to look after now...
13. since when did the rules of attraction become so complicated?!
14. what's the point of getting close to someone when they're just gonna leave u newayz? =(
15. gotta stop resorting to chocolate...
16. somebody distract me from my thoughts!!!
17. listening to boy bands reminds me of a much simpler time...
18. u're one in a million... dunno what i'd do without u =)
19. u're also one in a million... ur randomness astounds me hehe
20. there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me...
21. i must enjoy my holz... stop worrying about everything *sighs*

I miss my girls...

while i was walking to my last lecture this sem in the rain, i had a quick reflection about what i've been doing for myself so far this yr and i reckon it's been pretty good... i've made a lotta new friends, some that i'm becoming quite close to now and i've settled myself into a good balance of uni, work, family and friends... okies, maybe not so much study but now that all classes have finished, this is my big chance to shine and show my inner nerdiness hehe

what i wanna talk about in this blog is that i've noticed lately that i've been spending a lot more time with my guy friends... it's not exactly strange territory hanging out with guys 'cause i do have my fair share of guy friends but i'm not really used to hanging out with such an array of guy friends... and b4 pplz start jumping to conclusions, i'm not dating any of these guys... i'm only a little concerned now 'cause i reckon they have a bit of an influence on me and i wanna retain as much girliness as possible hehe

i got a little sentimental and was looking through some old photos on my comp... i used to hang out with my girls all the time and now, it seems like i'm reduced to seeing them at b'day parties or just bumping into them... i really miss u all... we have to organise some kinda girls nite out sometime this holz... or we can make it a cozy thing and just catch up in a small group or 1 on 1 over dinner and/or coffee... either way, i'm making the plea to my girlfriends to find some time to catch up with me... i'm totally up for it... the guys can be easily ditched hehe [to my guy friends reading this, u know i'm j/k... i love ur company =P]

... the good times with my girlfriends in 2007 ...

Catharsis 21 - May

it's about that time of the month [not THAT time of the month...] for my emo rantings about life... here goes...

1. i'm a single girl living in a couples' world...
2. why do i always want what i can't have?!
3. guys ruin lives... in more ways than one >_<"
4. am i really that smart or just fluking it?
5. i really, really, really wanna go on a holiday!!!
6. can't wait to dress up... Casino Royale style ^___^
7. the most random lyrics in the world...

Well come on, the way the time cold
I wanna be keeping you, worm
I got the right temperature
Fish hat, a ewe from the storm

Hola! Girl I got the right ant ticks to turn you on
Angola! Wanna be a papa? You can beat a mum... uh oh!!

whoever made this up is freakin' hilarious XD
btw, for those of u who can't figure it out, they're the [misheard] lyrics of Sean Paul's "Temperature"
watch the funni ass video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfXke_z6t3I&feature=related

8. tell me u're only like this 'cause u're being nice...
9. after all this time, why do i still care? why do i still worry about what u're doing?
10. i wish i could write all my probs onto a piece of paper, rip it up and let it all fly away... if only it were that simple...
11. why can't my life be more like a video game? if i stuff up, i could just reset it and start all over again...
12. really need to stop thinking so much...
13. let's go on a shopping spree!! haven't been on one in so long...
14. as much as i'm an easy target for all ur jokes, thanks for making me laugh and for the great company =P
15. need to get back into my cardio classes... stop being lazy >_<"
16. i always used to think u were emotionally retarded... i think it's contagious *sighs*
17. i'm in desperate need of pampering... waxing, manicure, massage, more foils, the works!!!
18. gotta stop trying to live in the past... it's in the past for a reason...
19. i wanna rearrange my room... and my life...
20. i wanna try and figure u out b4 it's too late...
21. i really do want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kinda life...