Last rant about August

all i have to say is...

u've been a horrible, horrible month August... i hope i never experience a month like this ever again =(

i know i've had my fair share of good times as well but i can't help but feel like i've been a bit of a wreck during August...

may September and the new season bring better days...

Catharsis 21 - August

1. i wish i wasn't such a big disappointment to u...
2. spring is [nearly] here!! ^__^
3. if only i could turn back time... if only i had said what i still hide...
4. i'm sorry i'm not a better friend to u... u treat me so well =(
5. back to the gym!! need to get [somewhat] fit again!!!
6. 'sometimes people play hard to get because they need to know the other person's feelings are real'
7. i want Sushi Train, Sizzler's, Freestyle, Pane e Vino and Food Fantasy so badly =(
8. sometimes, sometimes, sometimes... i get lonely too...
9. why do feelings have to be so freakin' complicated?!
10. somebody give me a good surprise... it's been too long!!
11. i should stop trying to live in fantasy world...
12. OMG... less than 3 weeks left...
13. where's the motivation?
14. where did it all go?
15. i hope someone better comes along... u deserve it =)
16. u're gonna end up a forgotten memory to me one day...
17. why don't the good things ever stay the same?
18. u're still my sunshine after the rain =)
19. i need an image makeover... starting next month!!!
20. i want so many new things...
21. stop procrastinating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wake me up when August ends...

i've never been a big fan of the month August... i dunno if it's just coincidence but good things never happen to me during this month and this yr has been no exception... for those of u who dunno, my 婆婆 [maternal grandmother] passed away in early August and i was pretty upset by that... she's looked after me all my life and she was living with me for the past 7 yrs after my 公公 [maternal grandfather] passed away... in some ways, i regret not being closer to her in her last yrs... after hearing my sister's eulogy during her funeral, it just brought back memories of when i used to hang out with her heaps as a kid... i remember telling her a long time ago that i'd still be spending heaps of time with her when i grew up but as time went on, we drifted apart... i'm still pretty upset now not just 'cause she's gone but also 'cause she's not gonna be there when i turn 21 or when i graduate from uni... i'll miss u dearly 婆婆 =( Rest in Peace...

i wanted to say a special thank u to Kev for driving me to the hospital, coming to the funeral and continually checking up on me to make sure i was okies and also to Ketty who was there for me during the day of the funeral, as well as everyone else who offered support and their condolences... it was very much appreciated and really helped me through this hard time =)

another sad thing to happen this month was having to farewell Taiki, who left for Japan yesterday... i've known this guy for quite a while and we've had a lotta good times together... all the times we hung out at uni, at friends' places, at each other's places, pplz's parties, each other's parties, went clubbing together, will be sorely missed =( i'm sorry i didn't get to see u on ur last day in Brissy but i hope u had a safe flight to Japan and best of luck at ur new job... i'll try and visit as soon as i can =)

it's nearly the end of August now and things r starting to look up... many things to look forward to:
1. Law Revue!! still haven't decided which day to go yet...
2. Andy's 21st... still haven't decided what to wear =S
3. the end of winter [FINALLY!!!]
4. planning my 21st!! although that's gonna be a lotta hard work *sighs*

okies, really need to get back to work... i have an assignment due tomorrow at 2pm >_<"